I am currently reading Daring Greatly by Brene Brown AND Carry on Warrior by Glennon Melton and I’m all “whoa ladies – GET OUT OF MY HEAD!” Brene is a researcher who has built a body of work on shame and vulnerability and whose Ted Talks went viral. Her message is to truly live a wholehearted life you have to learn to embrace your vulnerability and stop hiding it. Glennon’s a popular blogger who uses her gift of words to encourage moms (women, people) to embrace their imperfections and live “unarmed.” The common thread through both theses women’s writings is connection. Both have made me turn a mirror on myself … Read more
This month’s Clickin Moms Blog Circle challenge was “interesting perspectives.” It’s kind of fitting that this is my first post in well over a week. March was a tough month and I’ve taken the last week to focus inward and get my footing again. I needed some time to get some “perspective.” Since having kids, I have found the best way to gain some much needed perspective is to focus on them. To spend time just being their mom. So I rushed home each night and consciously hugged them tighter. I watched them more intently. I let the overwhelming love … Read more
I have always needed control. Feeling like things are out of my control is the biggest trigger of my anxiety. I have planners and calendars and check lists for just about everything in life. My mom was the same way. I think this is what drove her to shop and I’m pretty sure she battled her own anxiety demons because of it. I don’t know how to change this about me. I don’t know how to focus on what is in my control and let go of what isn’t. But I’m scared that this need to control my World is … Read more
So like I said in my previous post, I’ve been having a rough go of it recently. Selling my parent’s house has been stressful and has sent me on an emotional rollercoaster ride. I’ve been struggling with my grief in ways I haven’t struggled in a couple of years. I have felt so lonely. I’ve been screaming at the universe to cut me some slack and haven’t been getting a response. Then today this comment was submitted to yesterday’s post: Hi Amanda, Back in 2009 I think you left a comment on a post I had written on a NYT … Read more
The boys have been helping Matt dig a spot for a new garden. There’s lots of talk of tomatoes and peppers and lots of things Sam will never put in his mouth. There was also mud and worms and dirty little boys. Here they are minutes after their bath admiring all their hard work. A special thanks to Grandma Barb for the brand new garden tools that let the boys “help” dad!