Category Archives: Breast Cancer

Fuck Cancer

  By Amanda | April 6, 2013 - 11:12 pm | , ,
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Say it with me.  FUCK CANCER! Yesterday morning I got an email from a fellow Susan G. Komen 3-day walker passing on the sad news that a fellow warrior in pink, Bridget Spence, lost her battle. She was 29.  TWENTY NINE.  Fuck Cancer. A woman on my Clickin Mom’s board posted that she was just diagnosed with breast cancer and is going in for a double mastectomy. She’s 30.  And has a two year old.  Fuck Cancer. A sorority sister posted on Facebook this morning that her principal lost her battle to cancer. She had young kids.  Fuck Cancer. I … Read more →

This week – It's hard!

  By Amanda | April 30, 2012 - 11:20 pm | , , ,
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This week is hard.   I’m trying to find the words for where I am right now but I’m at a loss.  The memories of three years ago haunt me.  They feel more real right now.   Three years ago.  It feels like an eternity and a second at the same time.  It feels like forever ago that I last got to hug my mom.  It feels like ages since I heard her voice.  And at the same moment I cannot believe everything that has happened since I lost her.  All the moments she hasn’t been here to share.  And … Read more →

Emily's Question

  By Amanda | April 24, 2012 - 3:14 pm | , , , , ,
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I recently wrote this post over at Merelymothers.  Emily left a comment and asked me to write about how I got through the toughest times and if I have any tips or ideas for facing such a loss.  Emily shared that her mom has been diagnosed with Early Onset Alzheimers Disease. Emily, if you are reading this, first let me say that I am so sorry that you and your mother have to face this.  And thank you for reaching out.  Loss is such a hard and lonely process.  It’s so very personal and no one will ever experience loss … Read more →

And Just Like that I'm Right Back Where I Started

  By Amanda | April 15, 2012 - 1:47 am | , , , ,
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I am going up to NJ next weekend to help clean out my Mom and Dad’s house. Honestly, since my mom died it’s so hard to be there.  And despite how well I think I’m doing on a day to day basis I feel myself slipping as the weekend gets closer. This is hard to write because I feel so guilty for feeling this way.  I feel like I should be in a better place by now.  And I worry that these feelings will hurt my family’s feelings which is the last thing I would want to do. My anxiety … Read more →

Seeking Inspiration

  By Amanda | April 13, 2012 - 2:04 pm | , , , , ,
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A couple of weeks ago I spent some time adding new bloggers to my twitter feed and daily reading list.  One has cancer, one’s sister died, one is a recovering addict, one is a struggling single mom, one’s husband is on deployment.  The list goes on. As I thought about this the other day my initial reaction was – gee Amanda, you seem to be spending a lot of time reading about other’s misfortunes.  And I contemplated stopping.  Was I looking for others who felt despair?  Was I comparing my struggles with their struggles?  Was I looking for a reason … Read more →