A Birthday Wish for My Mom

Dear Mom, Happy Birthday.  How I wish you were here for me to say that to you.  I wish you were here to share this day with Will – celebrating your 59th year life and Will’s first year.  Oh, how I know you would have loved sharing your big day with this sweet child.  Mom, thank you for helping me become the woman I am today.  Thank you for teaching me that no matter how hard things get, there is always a reason to look to tomorrow.  Thank you for teaching me to use my words and my writing to … Read more

Conflict of Faith

I was somebody who discovered my faith on my own.  My parent’s were not overly religious – church was not a weekly event.  What they did do was expose me to religion.  Sending me to Sunday school to learn about the Church and it’s beliefs.  At the time it was a burden.  Something I had to wake up early on a weekend for.  But the foundation built during those years of Sunday school gave me an opportunity.  An opportunity to choose faith.  Which I did.  Long after my Sunday school days were behind me and I was confirmed in the … Read more

Grief

I wrote this post a couple of weeks ago and wasn’t sure if I was going to post it, but I have found that writing things down has been therapeutic for me.  It’s help me work through some of my thoughts and get them out — let them go.  And if someday someone else reads this and in some way it touches them then it was worth it.  So here goes . . .  I didn’t read any of the books on loss or grief. I didn’t want anyone telling me that my pain was the same as anyone else’s. … Read more

Life in Perspective

Sometimes something happens in life that reminds you to slow down. To take stock and give thanks for the gifts you’ve been given. Sometimes something happens in life that makes you realize that love and pain are so intertwined that it can be hard to tell them apart. I haven’t prayed much since I lost my mom.  My faith and belief have been shaken.  But today I’m putting my gripes with my maker aside and praying.  Praying with all my heart and soul for a little life that has already touched so many.  Praying for his family.  Praying.