Category Archives: inside my head

Seeking Inspiration

  By Amanda | April 13, 2012 - 2:04 pm | , , , , ,
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A couple of weeks ago I spent some time adding new bloggers to my twitter feed and daily reading list.  One has cancer, one’s sister died, one is a recovering addict, one is a struggling single mom, one’s husband is on deployment.  The list goes on. As I thought about this the other day my initial reaction was – gee Amanda, you seem to be spending a lot of time reading about other’s misfortunes.  And I contemplated stopping.  Was I looking for others who felt despair?  Was I comparing my struggles with their struggles?  Was I looking for a reason … Read more →

I Interrupt this Regularly Scheduled Blog Post

  By Amanda | April 5, 2012 - 10:00 am | , , ,
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I’m pretty excited about today!  Why? You may ask. Well, because I’m making my guest blogger debut over at Merelymothers. I’ve been totally loving having this outlet to pour my heart into.  It’s helped me process, helped me stay honest with myself, motivated me to keep training and generated a fair amount of donations for breast cancer research.  So when the opportunity to share my heart with another audience came I was both excited and kind of petrified. It’s pretty safe here.  Most the folks that read my blog know me.  They send encouraging words or at least bite their … Read more →

A Moment of Clairty

  By Amanda | April 3, 2012 - 7:24 pm | , ,
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Today I was driving back to my office and was overwhelemed by the beauty around me.  The clarity of the world.  The wonder of nature and spring and cherry blossoms and bright blue skies.  And I realized something, I haven’t felt this wonder about life in general in a very long time.  I’m in awe of my kids and there are days that their sheer existence brings me joy I didn’t know possible. But that feeling of being one with the World — of feeling present and grateful of that presence has alluded me for some time.  Today it felt … Read more →

Unwelcome Memories

  By Amanda | March 30, 2012 - 5:19 pm | , ,
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It’s been a while since a memory has snuck up and smacked me across the face. It use to happen all the time.  I think it was my brain’s way of processing something that it never imagined having to process. What on earth are you talking about Amanda? When my mom got very sick I rushed home to be at her side.  We didn’t know how long she had.  Hours? Days?  No one really knew but we knew it was BAD.  Very very bad.  I spent the next 2 weeks at her side in the hospital.  There were some good … Read more →

Faith, and God, and the Meaning of Life – Where do I Start?

  By Amanda | March 23, 2012 - 6:50 pm | , ,
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One of the things I’ve really wanted to work on lately is my faith. I read this post today.  She talks about always feeling carried by a higher being but not knowing how to help someone get there.  And I get that. In my life, I had always felt carried, protected, loved, understood by something higher.  For me that something higher was understood through a Roman Catholic context but for right here, right now I’m just going to call it something higher.  Something external from myself and from this earthly world.  And this higher power carried me through a fair … Read more →