So like I said in my previous post, I’ve been having a rough go of it recently. Selling my parent’s house has been stressful and has sent me on an emotional rollercoaster ride. I’ve been struggling with my grief in ways I haven’t struggled in a couple of years. I have felt so lonely.
I’ve been screaming at the universe to cut me some slack and haven’t been getting a response.
Then today this comment was submitted to yesterday’s post:
Hi Amanda,
Back in 2009 I think you left a comment on a post I had written on a NYT parenting blog…
I was heartbroken for you when I read it seeing that you had just lost your Mom and were expecting. So finally I googled you since I had always thought about how you were doing and I see you are making her proud! I have done the 3 day myself many times and it’s amazing right?! Glad to see you are making memories and getting your happy back. Just wanted you to know I never forgot that sweet comment and I’m so happy to see you living well.
Kristin
Please take a second and go read Kristin’s post here– it’s important to the rest of the story. Seriously go read it. Now.
Did you read it? Ok!
Ya’ll she wrote that post two days after my mom had passed away. On May 27, 2009 I read it and commented. I didn’t have a blog at the time. Kristin didn’t know me. I didn’t know her.
Of course as soon as I read her comment this morning I quickly ran to reread her article. Do you all see the similarities. I mean, I hadn’t even had Sam yet. My story hadn’t started to unfold yet it unfolded in such a parallel way! Her post broke my heart in 2009 – today it brought me so much comfort. The comfort of reading something that expresses what is in your heart so much better than you can. The comfort in knowing someone else has been exactly where you are at that second. The comfort of not being alone.
I couldn’t help it. I was flabbergasted. Three and a half years later this woman thought about me, googled me, found me and wrote to me. Today. She did this today. As I’m screaming at the universe – the universe sent me Kristin.
I couldn’t help it. I felt like it was meant to be. I couldn’t email her back fast enough. She lives 15 minutes from me. This woman who I wrote a two sentence comment to 3.5 years ago was sent my way.
You all know I struggle with faith. But if this isn’t meant to be then I don’t know what is.
Kristin – today you brought a lot of light into my darkness. <3
You made me cry Amanda. Thank you and I think we are going to be friends. Your Mom must have been a great lady to have such a thoughtful and brave daughter. Nice to meet you :)!