Holding My Breath

Every three months I hold my breath.  Hoping for the best but frozen by the thought of the worst.  I squeeze Sam a little bit tighter, rock him a little bit longer, tell him I love him a little bit louder.  I fight my anxiety and tell the negative voice inside my head to shut up! You see Sam has a genetic disorder called Beckwith Wiedemann Syndrome (BWS).  BWS is a congenital growth disorder.  We are thankful that on the spectrum of disorders, this one will likely have a minimal impact on Sam’s life.  In fact, we wouldn’t have even … Read more

Life in Perspective

Sometimes something happens in life that reminds you to slow down. To take stock and give thanks for the gifts you’ve been given. Sometimes something happens in life that makes you realize that love and pain are so intertwined that it can be hard to tell them apart. I haven’t prayed much since I lost my mom.  My faith and belief have been shaken.  But today I’m putting my gripes with my maker aside and praying.  Praying with all my heart and soul for a little life that has already touched so many.  Praying for his family.  Praying.

Beyond the Pink Ribbon

Who does not know what a pink ribbon stands for?  The color pink has become synonymous with breast cancer.  Throughout the month of October virtually every store and business finds a way to go pink in support of breast cancer education. I would say the effort to educate the public about breast cancer, the risk and the need for regular screening has been a screaming success.   On the other hand we have so far to go in the search for a cure. Every 3 minutes one person in the U.S. is diagnosed with breast cancer More than 1.4 million … Read more

Finding Time

So I’m training for the Susan G. Komen 3-Day where I will walk 60 miles in 3 days to raise money for breast cancer research and education.  Right now this sounds very daunting to this out-of-shape, post-baby body.  Thank goodness I have close to 11 months to get my body ready for this challenge. BUT . . .  I have great intentions, I really do.  I plan to get up early and walk.  But in order to walk and get to work in time I need to leave the house by 5:30 and with two little ones who are still … Read more

Where did my Baby Go?

Today my Sam turned two! Two years since I first laid eyes on that beautiful baby. The child that would remind me what true joy and happiness was again. Dear Sam, Today we celebrated your second year of life with a day of play and fun with Grandpa Jay and Uncle Joe Joe.  You played “night night” with your uncle and read books to your baby doll.  It’s like you knew it was a special day, you were too excited to nap! You have grown so much over the last year.  Learning to walk and run and dance and talk.  … Read more