Seeking Inspiration

A couple of weeks ago I spent some time adding new bloggers to my twitter feed and daily reading list.  One has cancer, one’s sister died, one is a recovering addict, one is a struggling single mom, one’s husband is on deployment.  The list goes on. As I thought about this the other day my initial reaction was – gee Amanda, you seem to be spending a lot of time reading about other’s misfortunes.  And I contemplated stopping.  Was I looking for others who felt despair?  Was I comparing my struggles with their struggles?  Was I looking for a reason … Read more

A Moment of Clairty

Today I was driving back to my office and was overwhelemed by the beauty around me.  The clarity of the world.  The wonder of nature and spring and cherry blossoms and bright blue skies.  And I realized something, I haven’t felt this wonder about life in general in a very long time.  I’m in awe of my kids and there are days that their sheer existence brings me joy I didn’t know possible. But that feeling of being one with the World — of feeling present and grateful of that presence has alluded me for some time.  Today it felt … Read more

Strong Like Bull

I’m working on a fun post with lots of past pics of the boys, but damned if I can get it lined up right.  I’ll be soliciting Matt’s technical expertise to find a way to make a pretty post with pictures. So instead of sharing my boys in pictures today I am going to share something else with you. If you knew my mom well, you knew she had this saying that she would use when she was facing something tough.  She’d use the same saying when I was struggling with something.  She would say “Amanda, you can do this … Read more

Faith, and God, and the Meaning of Life – Where do I Start?

One of the things I’ve really wanted to work on lately is my faith. I read this post today.  She talks about always feeling carried by a higher being but not knowing how to help someone get there.  And I get that. In my life, I had always felt carried, protected, loved, understood by something higher.  For me that something higher was understood through a Roman Catholic context but for right here, right now I’m just going to call it something higher.  Something external from myself and from this earthly world.  And this higher power carried me through a fair … Read more